It's so ironic, looking back at my prior post, reading my cynicism about Molly and Jason and their fairytale love story, but believing this type of thing only happens in Hollywood. Ironically, a few months later I found myself to be in a similar situation to both Molly and then Melissa.
For those of you who followed that particular season of The Bachelor religiously understand. But for those of you who did not, here's a simple explantation.
Molly:
The girl who got away but crept back into Jason's heart as soon as he realized what he had lost. Jason, the ever honest warrior, followed his heart, took a huge risk, and found a way to beg her to forgive him and take him back.Melissa:
The favorite from the beginning. The girl everyone thought would end up with her Prada knight who had no reason doubt Jason's sincerity and intentions. Unfortunately, a rug was pulled form beneath her feet as Jason confessed his true feelings..err... un-confessed his feelings for her.
Yeah, I'm both of those girls, combined into one hot mess.
Coincidentally over the same man.
The same BOY.
The same boy who has caused me to gain pound after pound as a result of the massive amounts of ice cream consumed in the last four years. And that is something I will never forgive him for.
Naturally, this escapade of my summer was an inspirational one. Usually I am flowing with lyrics. They seem to come easily and I typically don't have to work too hard to find a great line that expresses exactly how I'm feeling, exactly the way I am feeling it. But for 2 1/2 months of my summer I found myself to be lyric-less.
Speechless.
Unable to formulate a complete sentence with proper punctuation?
So how do you say what you need to say if you can't even utter the words that you want to write?
The ones you you need to say to get them off of your chest and out of your soul so you can breathe again.
Most of the summer I played instrumental piano pieces and the only lyric that ran through my head was I miss you. Can I miss you? I'll still be here. If you will be.
And although a lot of my pieces are sappy love-songs, want-you-back, wish you loved me...too bad you don't, I'll get through, girl-anthem, feel okay with it and move on type of songs, they couldn't all have this lyric, could they?
But eventually, the words came.
When I stopped trying to make them come.
They just fell out of my mouth.
I was just talking to myself.
Talking to someone who wasn't there; and the words fell out.
Easy.
Simple.
Honest.
To the point.
But the few (only 3) songs that came out of my overly confusing, sappy, lack of sunshine-filled summer are my favorites. For that sole reason-they are easy, simple, honest, and to the point.
And as much as I love the organized chaos of holding my breath and letting someone else hold my heart for awhile, its nice to know somethings can stay in a very simple state.
And still be so strong and effective.
Not everything has to be complicated with layers of cobwebs and heartbreak.
Some things can be simple.
And simple can be okay.
So join this adventure with me. I am so inspired by great lyrics and when I know what a lyric means or what the song is about, it means that much more to me. So, each week I will post the real meanings behind each of my songs. . . I guess I should keep writing so I don't run out of pieces! I will write about the inspiration, the thought process behind it, what season it was in, and maybe even what I was wearing that day.
*The question is always
'What have you got to lose?'
If the answer is nothing, you absolutely have to do it.
Much Love,
Rosie
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